Weary or Triumphant?


I wrote a letter to God about a year ago.  Sometimes I find it helpful if I put my prayers down on paper.  My prayer was my thoughts about a season in my life where I needed to submit to God.  Below is the letter.  It’s short so please read.

Hello, it’s me God.  It’s been a rough few days and I know I’ve been trying to figure this all out by myself.  Again, I confess that I can’t.  You see God, it’s overwhelming at times.  It seems that every day something new comes up and gets heaped upon my shoulders.  The weight is getting unbearable.  Yet, I think I’m superman or something.  I know you didn’t create me to be superman or any other super hero.  But I just seem to forget.

You know those white boards that we keep in our offices to keep track of things that need to be accomplished.  A visual “to do” list?  Well, when I was thinking about all of this before bed a few nights ago, I saw an empty white board in my thoughts.  And then all of a sudden the board was full.  Like there was no more room to add a single task.  It was then I thought to myself, “That’s where I’m at.”  Again, it overwhelmed me.

I’m told that You hear and answer every prayer.  I’m told that You are faithful and that You are able.  I’m told that You never leave my side and that You are my Rock, my Refuge, my Strong Tower.  Well God, I really need You.  I’m at my end and I submit to You that I’m not able.  I need You to help get me through the next moment in time, even if it’s just the next second, because I have no more strength.  Help me God!  Really… help me God!

I have no more to say because I can’t put anything more into words.  So, I’m turning to my faith and my hope in You.  Encourage me along the way because I really need it.

Your beloved.

Truth be told, I had forgotten about this letter until this morning while seeking God for help with this blog.  The letter was written during a time of great distress.  I couldn’t continue on my own.  I had to let go.  To be totally honest, I confess that most times I’m trying, in the flesh, to go from day to day.  I know that God walks with me and that He orders my steps, yet in my humanness, I try to go it alone.

Jesus tells us what we are to do in times when we can’t seem to go any farther.  He writes in Matthew 11:28 (NIV): “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”  Jesus calls us unto Himself.  He calls me, a sinner, to come to Him.  Jesus pursues me…weak and weary.  His desire is that I not remain weak and weary, but whole and restored… equipped to do His will.  Scripture tells us in 2 Corinthians 5:17 (NIV): Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!  I have Jesus’ help to become this new creation.  The problem lies within us… sinners.

Some of you may like to listen to Southern Gospel music.  I do.  Especially the sounds of The Cathedral Quartet.  My favorite song of theirs is “Sinner Saved by Grace.”  In the lyrics you find these words:

How could I boast on anything
I’ve ever seen or done
How could I dare to claim as mine
The victories God has won
Where would I be
Had God not brought me
Gently to this place
I’m here to say I’m nothing but
A sinner saved by grace

 God is faithful!  I repeat…God is faithful!  We are reminded of this often in God’s Word.  In fact, Jesus came not for the righteous, but for sinners like me.  It is here where I often fail.  I fail to recognize that Jesus came to seek me out…to call me.  And Matthew understood better than any other gospel writer that the story of Jesus, and the story of Christmas, is a story about God drawing near to those who were withdrawn. That it was about God leaning in toward those who had leaned away from God. Whatever the reason, they found themselves leaning away from God.  During the season in which I wrote this letter to God, I was overwhelmed.  I had health issues, financial issues, and employment issues all of which were weighing on me.  I was being crushed; or at least I felt like I was.  It was exactly the season that I needed.  Yes, I needed this season to realize the faithfulness of God.  God was walking with me through all of it so that I would be strengthened and even encouraged through it. He showed me that in His faithfulness I too could remain faithful.

If you would like to hear a powerful message called, “O Come All Ye Faithful” by Pastor Aaron Taylor, click on the podcast link here: http://www.painesvilleag.com/painesville-ag-messages/?enmse=1&enmse_sid=17

Friend, in this Christmas season, do you feel overwhelmed by the hustle and bustle, the burdens of the world being heaped on you to the point where something must change?  Often times the holiday season can be stressful.  We sometimes even grieve during this time instead of being “joyful and triumphant.”  We are weary and burdened.  But Praise be to God, we can find relief in Jesus Christ!  We can experience His faithfulness.  We can experience His grace.  We can rejoice that we are a new creation.  It’s a matter of choice.  Jesus is waiting for you today to make that choice.  In love, I would say to you, choose Jesus.  Allow Him to forgive you.  Allow Him to heal you.  Allow Him to transform you from faithless to faithful.  Oh, Come All Ye Faithful, Joyful and Triumphant.

May the Lord bless you indeed this week and show you His faithfulness!

George Leonhardt